这两个礼拜真的很难熬 因为我的脚在上个星期天（父亲节）扭伤了
准确来说不是扭伤 是拉伤韧带 有块小块的骨头裂了点
这或许是我第一次那么伤心的受伤。其实朋友们都知道，我不是第一次扭到脚了，我两只脚都扭过，严重的轻微的都有。
这次何为说成是伤心的，因为我的计划全盘泡汤了。
从跌倒那天算起，医生说得包3个星期，我求了又求，医生说最快也得两个星期。
两个星期............................
那个我原来期待，并抱着最大祝福的婚礼，去不成了。
是我的错，把这件事看得太重了，所以弄得我得失心太重。也算是一个经验吧，虽然我还是看不开。
太多想说的，不敢说，怕家人担心。
只能说我现在的心情比考试前的那晚更无助。
支撑我那么久的期待，在我眼前幻灭。我的伤不是你想象的而已。
我很想把这笔帐就记到你们头上，但是耶稣说爱你的仇敌。
我要怎样？我到底能怎样。
*写一写，删一删，哭一哭，又是一条好汉。
2014年5月27日星期二
2014年5月16日星期五
Public Law
昨天过了第二张paper, Public Law.
压力比较少，至少我睡得着。跟考criminal的前一晚不能睡比起来好多了。
经过两次的考试，我发现最容易让人崩溃的是考试前一夜。
考试前一夜的心情特别低落，特别想死，特别容易激动。
任何人都一样。就算你准备得再充足，都一样。
能够把LLB degree完成的孩子，心里都特别强大。
试试看经历我们所经历的那种考试压力，或许你就懂为什么律师值得那么多钱。
律师根本就是骗钱的，他们的知识哪里值得那么多钱?!
是啊，知识不值那么多钱，我们的努力就值那么多钱！
当你们有时间去shopping喝茶，我们能去放松心情的地方就是在外面走走，到另一栋楼走走。
我们的生活不超过方圆两百米。就这样活了几个月。那个压力之大啊...............
但是依然感谢主，感谢主为我们有一群互相帮助的朋友。
真的很感谢那些朋友的支持，虽然有几个我还是觉得很tmd，但是还ok的
哈哈哈
昨天考完试的那个晚上，跟Sam去教会 看pastor KongHee
反正我也是正常人，我也被media影响，他的负面新闻还是多多少少有影响我
反正那感觉就很奇怪，不明白。
对他的感觉很奇怪，但是还是很感谢他教的。
再多坏事的发生都不能动摇上帝是神的真理。
爱不是在意祂能给你什么，你只是没有祂活不下去。
压力比较少，至少我睡得着。跟考criminal的前一晚不能睡比起来好多了。
经过两次的考试，我发现最容易让人崩溃的是考试前一夜。
考试前一夜的心情特别低落，特别想死，特别容易激动。
任何人都一样。就算你准备得再充足，都一样。
能够把LLB degree完成的孩子，心里都特别强大。
试试看经历我们所经历的那种考试压力，或许你就懂为什么律师值得那么多钱。
律师根本就是骗钱的，他们的知识哪里值得那么多钱?!
是啊，知识不值那么多钱，我们的努力就值那么多钱！
当你们有时间去shopping喝茶，我们能去放松心情的地方就是在外面走走，到另一栋楼走走。
我们的生活不超过方圆两百米。就这样活了几个月。那个压力之大啊...............
但是依然感谢主，感谢主为我们有一群互相帮助的朋友。
真的很感谢那些朋友的支持，虽然有几个我还是觉得很tmd，但是还ok的
哈哈哈
昨天考完试的那个晚上，跟Sam去教会 看pastor KongHee
反正我也是正常人，我也被media影响，他的负面新闻还是多多少少有影响我
反正那感觉就很奇怪，不明白。
对他的感觉很奇怪，但是还是很感谢他教的。
再多坏事的发生都不能动摇上帝是神的真理。
爱不是在意祂能给你什么，你只是没有祂活不下去。
2014年5月12日星期一
First Paper, Criminal
今天开始了我的第一张试卷。对于有读书的人来说绝对不难。
至于我....中等吧.....考之前想score，现在觉得有pass就好。
考试一次过撑3个小时，太疯狂了，其中一度想吐，想晕倒，还是坚持下来了。
完成后真的快疯了，手指因为握笔太用力加上姿势不对，指甲淤青了。太夸张！从来没有试过。
回来就睡了几个小时，现在还觉得很累很爱睡。
过两天又有考试了，不能松懈下来，感觉很累。
我真的能明白那位跳楼的女孩。我们一样的年纪，一样的课程，在同一条船上。
在她的跳楼事件后，莫名的我多了很多关心。
在人家说起这事的时候，我还能笑笑的说她看不开什么什么的。但是夜深人静回想起来....感同身受......我现在也很想放弃这一切，这些永远读不完的书，永远看不完的参考书。
那些对于这件事给评论的，Please put yourself into our shoes before you say anything.
不要跟我说：“还没有出来社会就接受不了这样的压力，出社会怎么办？”
也不要跟我说：“读law而已嘛，背罢了不是咩，哪里大压力？”
如果你看见我们怎样读书，如果你看见我们怎样坚持。
如果你知道我们的课程内容，如果你知道我们要面对的多少uncertainty。
如果你完全理解以上所有如果，你才来说话好吗？
愿逝者安息。
至于我....中等吧.....考之前想score，现在觉得有pass就好。
考试一次过撑3个小时，太疯狂了，其中一度想吐，想晕倒，还是坚持下来了。
完成后真的快疯了，手指因为握笔太用力加上姿势不对，指甲淤青了。太夸张！从来没有试过。
回来就睡了几个小时，现在还觉得很累很爱睡。
过两天又有考试了，不能松懈下来，感觉很累。
我真的能明白那位跳楼的女孩。我们一样的年纪，一样的课程，在同一条船上。
在她的跳楼事件后，莫名的我多了很多关心。
在人家说起这事的时候，我还能笑笑的说她看不开什么什么的。但是夜深人静回想起来....感同身受......我现在也很想放弃这一切，这些永远读不完的书，永远看不完的参考书。
那些对于这件事给评论的，Please put yourself into our shoes before you say anything.
不要跟我说：“还没有出来社会就接受不了这样的压力，出社会怎么办？”
也不要跟我说：“读law而已嘛，背罢了不是咩，哪里大压力？”
如果你看见我们怎样读书，如果你看见我们怎样坚持。
如果你知道我们的课程内容，如果你知道我们要面对的多少uncertainty。
如果你完全理解以上所有如果，你才来说话好吗？
愿逝者安息。
2014年4月27日星期日
28.4.2014
This is the year that I experienced most.
Know a lots of new friend. Read tons of books. Study until morning. Do crazy thing with crazy friends.
But, this is also the year that I have no time or maybe I should say I forgot to write blog.
It's wasted that many of things didn't record.
I have thousand of plans after my exam. HAHA
People always do things like this, got all the "after exam plan" before exam.
There are two plans that really buck up whenever I think of I will be chilled.
The first is Darren&Jia wedding. And the another is backpacking plan with KD. (the first Muslim friend I know. A very pretty but not the common kind of pretty girl, this is the point that make us became friend. Always do crazy and weird things together.I knew she can does all the crazy things by herself and she really did. I really salute upon what she did. The only girl that I know crazy to this level.LOL)
The second plan is no sure but if that could be done, it will be a memorable thing in my life.
Wish me luck in the upcoming exam. :)
Know a lots of new friend. Read tons of books. Study until morning. Do crazy thing with crazy friends.
But, this is also the year that I have no time or maybe I should say I forgot to write blog.
It's wasted that many of things didn't record.
I have thousand of plans after my exam. HAHA
People always do things like this, got all the "after exam plan" before exam.
There are two plans that really buck up whenever I think of I will be chilled.
The first is Darren&Jia wedding. And the another is backpacking plan with KD. (the first Muslim friend I know. A very pretty but not the common kind of pretty girl, this is the point that make us became friend. Always do crazy and weird things together.I knew she can does all the crazy things by herself and she really did. I really salute upon what she did. The only girl that I know crazy to this level.LOL)
The second plan is no sure but if that could be done, it will be a memorable thing in my life.
Wish me luck in the upcoming exam. :)
2014年4月8日星期二
8.4..2014
I did say that I would not on Facebook before the exam. As what we all have known, I did it suck. I on it almost everyday.
The life is getting tougher. That is only about 30 days before the exam and I am still chilling. Even I went to Singapore for one week during my revision period. Learning not to complaint anything. I have no the rights to complaint anything.
When am i gonna learn my lesson?
Other than the natural stress from exam, I been convinced a truth.
The world is getting darker and darkest.
The fairness and justice are absent day by day.
Even a school teacher who claim himself is a Catholic acted in a way that unbelievable. He bullied my juniors with his power as a teacher. I just cannot believe it until my juniors actually cried when telling me the story. It was just unfair and unjust for my little juniors to face all these things but I have no locus standi to help them! I would help them anyhow if the case getting worse. What i wish to do is not them but to maintain the justice lied under God's name.
Beside that, my hostel is getting to declare world war II.
How could the cleaner blame my friend! She is just a cleaner, who she thinks she is!
Sometimes I felt pity on behalf of the hostel, most of us are legal student and know the way to protect our basis rights and we dare to shout out the injustice. We did not take action is just tolerating. Dont go beyond the line we drawn.
They are the best hostel mates i could ever find. Dont bully them.
The life is getting tougher. That is only about 30 days before the exam and I am still chilling. Even I went to Singapore for one week during my revision period. Learning not to complaint anything. I have no the rights to complaint anything.
When am i gonna learn my lesson?
Other than the natural stress from exam, I been convinced a truth.
The world is getting darker and darkest.
The fairness and justice are absent day by day.
Even a school teacher who claim himself is a Catholic acted in a way that unbelievable. He bullied my juniors with his power as a teacher. I just cannot believe it until my juniors actually cried when telling me the story. It was just unfair and unjust for my little juniors to face all these things but I have no locus standi to help them! I would help them anyhow if the case getting worse. What i wish to do is not them but to maintain the justice lied under God's name.
Beside that, my hostel is getting to declare world war II.
How could the cleaner blame my friend! She is just a cleaner, who she thinks she is!
Sometimes I felt pity on behalf of the hostel, most of us are legal student and know the way to protect our basis rights and we dare to shout out the injustice. We did not take action is just tolerating. Dont go beyond the line we drawn.
They are the best hostel mates i could ever find. Dont bully them.
2014年2月20日星期四
Unbalance
I have decided not to on facebook in the coming 3 months.I will put in effort to make it.
I am not because of stress from exam. I am because of feeling unbalance.
It is really irritating to scroll down Fb and see your friends are enjoying and you are suffering.
The feeling if just very damn suck.
As i was doing my case noting till burning the midnight oil, and you guys are just chilling in don't know which pub with happiness.
??!! ??!!!
I felt unbalance to see you guys chilling and when i am suffering.
Its unfair, but its also just a beginning. We shall see at the end of our life journey.
I am not because of stress from exam. I am because of feeling unbalance.
It is really irritating to scroll down Fb and see your friends are enjoying and you are suffering.
The feeling if just very damn suck.
As i was doing my case noting till burning the midnight oil, and you guys are just chilling in don't know which pub with happiness.
??!! ??!!!
I felt unbalance to see you guys chilling and when i am suffering.
Its unfair, but its also just a beginning. We shall see at the end of our life journey.
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